Tuesday, October 31, 2006

HEY!~ tonite was reali damn fun man! planned a surprise party for Hannah, and ended up being mistaken as a Peeping Tom! Haha!!! and also for Nic... hope u 2 enjoyed and like e prezzies we gt for u 2.

Egg tarts
Choc cream puffs
Piggy hp chain
Watermelon juice

J... i firmly believe, one day, u will overcome e obstacle in ur heart and move on... It is becos i noe u r strong, and u hav wat it takes; thus, u will make it. Whatever choice/decision u make, i will support u. u noe dat whenever u need someone to be dere, 91073563 is e no to call.

Sad J=Sad Alex

i noe it is hard to nt tink abt it, bt i firmly believe and swear by bein happy everyday, cos when u r puttin a sincere smile on ur face, pple c u also smile. But if u put a frown or 'chou' face, pple c le will "san tiao xian".

To put wat i wan to say to u in a song, go listen attentively to Jay Chou's "Bai Se Feng Che". :)

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Wednesday, October 25, 2006

The fotos above r fotos taken when i was singing at NTU's song-composing competition. Exclusive and limited edition!!! haha!~
ALEX IS HAPPY! ALEX IS HAPPY! ALEX IS HAPPY! ALEX IS HAPPY! ALEX IS HAPPY???
R u sure? Yes I am. Sources had complained dat my blog is too sad and after some deep thought and clearing up with J, i've felt dat wat i said is too childish and unreasonable... I've gave a deep thought... i shld nt be too selfish and always wan things for myself. By doin this, wat do i achieve? Nothing in fact. Thus, i will juz stick to wat i am doin nw and let nature take its own course. Often, things may nt be goin on well nw, but who knows wat will happen in e future rite? EMO=SAD=NO MOOD thus, this muz stop and will juz revert back to normal.
Anw, today J gave me e 2nd small prezzie... whereby e 1st one was a cute fastener. She gt me my fav choc=Kit Kat Chunky! I reali like it a lot and i will onli eat it when i am real hungry or no $. HAHA!!! i noe for myself, i reali appreciate anything e ger i likes give me, and i will cherish it.
J... real sorrie for last nite 'shit' talk to u and i reali regret wat i said. hope u will nt be angry w me...

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At times, i thought... why muz i care and be concerned over her? is it reali worth it? even though she goes out late at nite, it is also nt my prob... why muz i trouble myself w all these stuff? is nt dat she will noe i care?..
It's ok... i am slowly gettin over it... it will be real hard, but i will do it. Like wat Beng said: "Nice men finish last". Seems like this saying is reali true man! i always tink dat doin good deeds will hav good karma, but i choose to differ now. Probably i shld be a f*****, wat for always be Mr Nice Guy?
I am reali veri tired le... doin sweet stuff for e ger i like is nt a veri hard thing to do, as i always said dat me putting a smile on e ger i like will also make me happy, but wat for? i am sad. reali veri sad. EMO nites suck to e core and i reali wan to stop gettin EMO, but i can't.
Many things had happened in my gang, and all r negative things, is it e season of negative things now? it's hard to understand hw a ger tinks, especially e ger u like. u can never guess or understand hw a ger tinks and whether is she with u or nt. I agree... i had e wrong thoughts and misconceptions, but u can't blame me, cos i reali thought i will be able to make u change ur mind, but u did nt.
Seems like i shld juz concentrate on my studies and Motorola and events organizing... my mind cannot tahan so many things at a time, especially if it is sth dat is veri negative... juz turns my mood off and make me unable to do my stuff.

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I get wat u meant le, J. Frankly speaking, it is nt abt u being a supermodel or being super hot/pretty, then will = many guys chasing u. Looks r superficial in relationships and will never last. So wat if this ger is super pretty/hot, but her character=F, wat for rite?
Is juz dat I feel different towards u, and is a kind of feeling I can't use words to describe... it is like at times when I tink of u, my entire mind will be filled w u and I can't do other stuff le. But I will feel EMO after dat cos knowing dat so wat if I miss u? u don't miss me at all... it may sound damn sad, but dat is e truth, especially u said dat it is onli a brotherly liking towards me=final nail to my coffin.
And u hav become a habit of me le... Callin/Smsin/Msnin u has become like a daily habit dat i need to follow, and I am enjoying every moment of it. But I know I must stop, cos if I don't, e person who will suffer in e end is ME. Emotionally attached=No turning-back.
Hope dat u enjoyed e times w me, cos I do. All e bez btw u and shen~

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Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Yesterday's drinking session at Chicken's house was GOOD man! Lots of alcohol+Good food+Nice friends=FUN!~ Haha!!! But, 3 friends were gone and almost wasted. It's a pity dat J can't come... cos she will definitely enjoy de! I don't know why... once the sky turns dark, i will start to get EMO. EMO as in like I will start thinking of a lot of things, usually sad things... Sadz:( But wat to do? I am a freaking Gemini, so I can't stop thinking and will think of what will happen in the future...
In fact, I really admire myself. WHY? Becos I have learnt the Chinese saying:"Na De Qi, Fang De Xia" It means to be able to pick things up easily and give things up easily. Initially, it is really f-ing hard, but I know if I don't, I will suffer in the end if the outcome is not what I want. Initially, it was TTS&E(Take Things Slow & Easy) tactic, now is the HFTB(Hope For The Best) tactic. It is impossible to cut off contact completely, because I know I am not the kind of person, but I will refrain from contacting her unneccesary, but if she needs care and concern, I will always be there for her. ;)

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Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Hi~ i've given a very good thought to what I should do about J... Probably my brothers are right...if i persist on what I am doing now, and if the ultimate outcome is not I want to be, the person who is really going to feel really shitty will be ME. Frankly speaking, I cannot just don't care about J, because of all the girls I had liked before, J is the ONE who gives me the most unique and special feeling. It is that kind of feeling whereby words also cannot describe; thus, causing me to have very complicated and mixed feelings... And to be real frank, the feeling sucks to the core. But what to do?... This is the stage whereby one will have to go through if the gal does not like you in the first hand.

Of course, I cannot be selfish and force J to come to a decision at this present moment, it is because it will be very unfair on her part and very selfish on my part. To digress a bit, I really want to shout out 'THANK YOU' to all of my brothers and friends who are concerned about me, I really appreciate it a lot. What I can say is that 'let time wash away all the wounds', and I firmly believe, J would make a wise decision. Of course, as the saying goes 'The higher hope you put in, the harder you will fall'; thus, I will just take this matter with a pinch of salt.

Flashing back... Drinking at Labryinth...1st movie-dinner date...2nd VivoCity date...Kinder Buenos...Tuna sandwich and her favourite strawberry yogurt drink...Soft-shell crab...Mushroom swiss hamburger...Gummy bears...Marshmallows...Ben and Jerry's Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough ice-cream...Watermelon juice...... All the things that J likes... I will never forget.

Anyway, today when Beng was pumping petrol at Shell, I walked into the store and saw the new flavor of Ben and Jerry's... Marsh Marsh... which happened to be the one whom J told me she felt like eating... so decided to buy for her. Hee~! Frankly speaking, it really feels nice when I buy things for J and J feels happy when she receives them... The smile on her face is really priceless. I am not saying that I am the best guy in town, but what I can say is that I can definitely provide what J wants. What I can ask for... is a CHANCE. If cannot, never mind. Thank you J. I really enjoyed the times when I was out with you...the times when I was chatting with you on the phone(although I only won you twice only. Haha!)...the night at Labryinth... These memories will always be on my mind. "只怪我太呵护, 把你疼" (滥好人)

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Friday, October 13, 2006

Hello...
Finally... my sucky mid-terms are over le... tink i will flunk real bad man (CSE 111=17/40), sure die liao... nw muz start to studi hard le... sianz!~
Anyway, gt to know this ger from my uni... J is a veri nice ger, actualli the way i gt to know her was kinda corny, cos dat time i was doing my lab assignment for CSE 111, so i played music thru my W810i fone, and was Jay Chou's song... den J commented dat she loves Jay music and asked me whether i gt e cd and can burn for her anot?... It all started from dat day......
We exchanged MSN den HP number... den started chatting on e fone... i would say, initially, i onli treat her as a normal gal fren, bt after a few conversations, i felt differently towards her le... In fact, i was thinkin will she be e one i'm waiting for?... She loves Kinder Bueno, so i made it a point dat as long i'm in school and she is also in school, i will without fail gt her Kinder Bueno. Although it is kinda fattening, bt e smile i c on her face is the ultimate satisfaction i desire... She also likes the tuna sandwich sold at MegaBites and the strawberry yogurt drink... dat day, i wanted to buy Kinder Surprise for her, bt they nv sell, bt no worries~ i finally gt them at NTUC today! and also bought a pair of diamond studs at SK, sth i had yearned for a few mths le... Finally, i mustered all my courage to ask her out for a date... which was on Wednesday 11 Oct 2006. We went to Cafe Cartel for dinner and went Cathy to catch "World Trade Centre". After dat, i bought her fav Ben and Jerry's ice-cream "Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough". After dat, sent her home and went home.
Erm... i would say i reali enjoyed myself during e date, hope dat J also enjoyed herself. Actualli, i feel dat J juz cant forget e guy who owns her heart nw... and i'm also nt pressing her to make an immediate decision... i told her dat i will employ e TTS&E (Take Things Slow & Easy), cos it's beta to noe someone beta than let fate decide e outcome.
J... u noe hw i feel towards u de... all i'm asking is juz a chance to prove myself... i can't promise u dat i will treat u nice and stuff, cos i dun believe in empty promises, whereby action speaks louder than words, so i will prove to u thru my actions.
Today... i will be goin to Vivocity w J... reali lookin forward to e date leh... hope it will turn out well and sincerely hope e DAY will come... Tata~

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006

I juz finished COM 101, PSY 101 and CSE 111 mid-term exams... and wat's e verdict? all of them sucks big time man! wat can i say??? next week is UGC 111, HISTORY!!! a lot of info to digest man! sianz~

i've been thinkin abt this for this period of time, why BGR always hav so many prob? The irony is when a guy and a ger r together, they will hav good and bad times together... aiyah! life sometimes sucks to e max!~

one more thing, i reali miss my fren in US. she's pursuing her Master's degree in Bloomington in violin studies... juz praying real hard dat she will make it and everything will go smoothly for her...

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