Monday, November 27, 2006

To whoever 'wake up' is, thank you.
Realli...
I may nt be able to get e ger i like, bt at least i hope dat i had helped her out of e vicious cycle.
Finals
Work
No time for other stuff le...
So...
Single and having many close gal frens r still nicer and less emotions involved.
...

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ChaoBuiKia jumps
at |11/27/2006 01:55:00 am|

Monday, November 20, 2006

I thought I can managed to stop myself from thinking of her... But seems like it's not true. I really tried... U think it is easy? Especially when she had become a habit of mine, whereby everytime I switch on my laptop, e first thing I will do is to go read her blog... When I c her on msn, I reali wan to go chat with her... When I c e fone on my table, I really wan to pick e fone and call her to chat... When I think of her, I really wan to sms her and c wat is she doing and stuff... BUT I CAN'T now.

Hopes are definitely crushed to 0 le... Especially after last Tuesday conversation w her. To me personally, I feel dat I only do sweet and nice things for e ger I like only, dat's all. If she doesn't like me, there's no use. Cos even though I buy e entire Earth for her, she will still nt like me.

It's painful... Heart-wrenching pain I would say... But, wat to do? One-sided is lidat de... Ultimately, e one who will suffer is e giver. I'm nt asking for anything in return, I juz hope dat she can gt on w her life and if possible, tink why I had done so many stuff for her. Because I did nt do those stuff for nothing.

With regards to e bad-mouthing incidents, I would say there's nth i can do. Because e mouth belongs to them, if they wan to bad-mouth, let them be. There's reali nth I can do. And I'm really tired.

It's time
Let go, Alex
It's nt worth it

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ChaoBuiKia jumps
at |11/20/2006 06:30:00 pm|

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Yesterday was a FUN night at Shanas's house man! BBQ+Stupid games+Booze(i did nt gt to drink cos i was driving)=FUN!!! Haha! Reali nv regret coming to UB and knowing all those frens man! Anyway, J, sorry for nt being able to send u home... cos reali nt enuff time and out of e way though... next time k? Sorry!

Alex... u reali gt over her liao ar? R u sure?
R u reali reali sure?
I replied:"Can i nt gt over her? Do u tink i will feel beta if i hold onto her? Esp it's so one-sided and stuff... Letting go seems to be e bez option le..."
I hope time will wash away all wounds fast enough... cos finals r reali comin and stress level is slowly going up le... hope everything will go on smoothly and achieve wat i wan...

J
hope time can rewind to e times when we were happy

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ChaoBuiKia jumps
at |11/18/2006 11:48:00 pm|

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

It's the end.
Officially.
Finally.
"Stop liking me..."
IT's the final nail to my coffin.
I thought being there for you will generate a chance for me.
FAT hope!
Wake up Alex!!!
It's fucking one-sided!
What for?
She does not like you and made it clear to you already.
Tears are free.
Activate them when you need them.
And they will definitely be there for you.
Especially the source is your HEART.
...


Wake up Alex!


It's really painful.

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ChaoBuiKia jumps
at |11/15/2006 01:17:00 am|

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Haiz!~
This week is the bez week in my UB study life man! U noe why? My schedule has become 7-day week!!! Imagine this! Today is Sunday, and I am typing this entry in SIM leh... haha!!! I bet u all will be asking me why rite? I tink i dun wan to name who the person is... The person knows can le. (U know who you r la... Hee!)
But it's ok. Cos the person's home internet connection died on her, and she is internet-free for this weekend, and I can understand the feeling sucks as the person is someone who is online every nite, thus no internet=pekcek! Haha!~!
hmmm.... I tink I can run for the MNG(Mr Nice Guy) award leh... not say I bhb la... but reali la! I come down all e way from Pasir Ris to Clementi to let the person use my laptop, but it's ok...:) as long as she's happy, I'm happy.
Yesterday, woke up in the morning and was watching this serial on SCV Channel 55... The guy said:"Although the heart is broken, the heart is still beating and should just be strong enough and carry on with your life." Seems like nowadays serial shows gettin more and more 'chim' liao... haha! regarding my love life, it has come to a standstill and whether or not it will carry on, it all boils down to fate le.

fate
u coming?

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ChaoBuiKia jumps
at |11/12/2006 04:39:00 pm|

Saturday, November 04, 2006

J...
Sorry abt last nite.
Juz gt real vexed.
Hope u understand.
Anyway, lookin forward to "Prison Break" tomolo~
:)

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at |11/04/2006 08:56:00 pm|

Friday, November 03, 2006

It's abt time le... Reali. If i dun, den e time will nt be rite le. Haiz~

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ChaoBuiKia jumps
at |11/03/2006 11:33:00 pm|